I, the Wanderer

I am not sure how to start this. Right now, I am listening to Dance With the Devil by Breaking Benjamin. That song always gives me a sense of pride. I feel I am telling someone to fear me, not to make an eye contact with me, almost like a warning. Anyway, I had one of the worst experiences of life today. I lost my wallet. Yes, I did. Its one of the worst experiences of life since the manner in which I lost it sounded pathetic. I came home from Delhi, changed clothes and began searching where I kept it. I somehow forgot about it, ignoring my fears, thought I had kept it upstairs while dressing and left home again for later search-for the wallet. I somewhat forgot about it when i came back since I was engrossed on phone with the special one and then with a friend. Lets come to the point. Finally, back home i realized i was searching for my wallet. I messed up every little corner of the almirah, threw away my Guitar, turned every box upside down, pushed my quilt, searched all pockets a...

 Cudnt find the correct ones so thought let me try it myself....Its been a long time updated anything on my blog....Lets Hit again through this one.......Enjoy Start Humming with Am.....string 6 3 2 1 (put pingy finger on 3rd fret string 1)  Am.................................. Teri yaadon se doori behtar hai Am.............................. Karti jeena hai mushkil Am........................ Yeh woh baarish hai G Deti banjar hai F ..............................G Bheegke hoga kya haasil Am....................G Tujhe hi nahi jab meri aarzoo hai F.............................F Mujhe bhi kahan phir teri justujoo hai.. Ho.. Am.................G Teri yaadon se doori behtar hai F....................G............. Karti jeena hai mushkil Yeh woh baarish hai Deti banjar hai Bheegke hoga kya haasil Tujhe hi nahi jab meri aarzoo hai Mujhe bhi kahan phir teri justujoo hai.. Am................. Raahon mein doondha karta hoon Am Jab bhi kahin se guzartaa...

Its not that I havent tried to know the purpose of my life, I just never found an answer. I feel peaceful when everything settles down, then a storm comes and spoils it all. I was settled where I was in my previous company, but a phone call from my best friend brought mess into my life. I saw, thought a little, ended it all. Now again I feel delusional. Why m I like that? Why I have to be like that?  I walk and run without a direction, aimless. This beautiful girl who walked into my life has so many expectations from me, but those include question marks too. My mother, same story. I guess the term “The Wanderer” given by me to myself stands true. But its injuring. I am not sure what I am like, a human or an animal. May be neither of these.  Humans have emotions, have a sense of determination, motivation and inspiration. I have torn my hair trying to understand what it is like. Never got through. They tell stories of their aims, their hardships and how they overca...